In all of my life, it never occurred to me that I was going to have any type of mental illness, I thought my life was going to be spontaneous and it was. I thought to be quiet was your choice, and being loud was for people that wanted attention. I thought that being dumb was because you didn’t use your brain by thinking, and being smart was from reading and being taught new knowledge from advanced people. I thought the feeling was a form of touch, as it is also feeling with emotions.
I thought that the friends you grew up with were going to be life long, and the family you had would never leave you. It is hard having PTSD you don’t want to be all alone but that’s how you feel and no sooner than that poof the family that you had are gone. Did you know that people with Narcissistic Personality Disorder most people have an not even know it, and once they recognize it they see it in different people they know? Did you know that Parent’s have it and their children end up with having PTSD? Did you know that there’s no cure for NPD and no medicine to take for it but they have different kinds of medication for PTSD? My Parents have traits of NPD, and I was diagnosed with PTSD after a brutal Rape that happened when I was nineteen I’ve been through different trauma’s.
After giving birth to my three beautiful amazing children I was completely happy.